Full-Blown Pain: My Battle Against the Mysterious Suffering of Cluster Headache Syndrome

It was a dreary weekday morning in September 2016. I worked as a educator, trying to settle a new class, when a intense sensation erupted behind my one eye. This was followed by rapid shocks, similar to lightning bolts. As each class came and went, the discomfort eased and then returned with increased intensity. Multiple times that day I handed over a teaching assistant with activities and ran to the school bathroom to soak my face with cool water. I took aspirin, but the pain remained unbearable.

The headaches returned frequently that autumn, and again in spring, soon establishing an annual cycle. The autumn months were the most severe, then the late winter. I could predict the routine: aura in the shower, early twinges on the train, full-blown agony in the classroom by mid-morning. In 2019, a GP finally sent me to a specialist and I was diagnosed with cluster headache disorder.

This condition typically start with severe discomfort around a single eye that persists for three hours.

About 1 in 1000 people suffer by the disorder, and males are more frequently affected. Attacks typically begin with abrupt, severe pain focused on one eye that reaches its peak within a short time and lasts for as long as three hours. Attacks come in clusters, daily or several times a day, and are accompanied by red or watery eyes, drooping eyelids or facial perspiration. I have the episodic form, which arrives in seasonal bouts; some patients have continuous attacks, characterized by the absence of long pain-free periods.

What unites sufferers is the severity. One research paper rated the sensation at 9.7 out of 10, higher than broken bones or other conditions. A separate found a significant percentage of cluster patients reported suicidal thoughts amid bouts; the number fell to four percent when they were not in pain.

One patient, in her seventies, a long-term patient from Pembrokeshire, isn't surprised. Her episodes began when she was a toddler. “I would throw myself on the floor and bang my head. That was attributed to being spoiled,” she says. Her symptoms worsened through childhood. Drinking in her adolescence, similar to many causes, made things worse. After having sherry at her school leaving party, she recalls hardly being able to see on the bus home.

Her relatives often interpreted her attacks as drunken behavior. Support eventually came from her parent and then from her partner, her spouse. “I was very fortunate to find such an understanding person,” she says. Hobbs found clerical work after relocating, but often concealed her condition. She was fired from one job, in part due to time off during attacks. Her definitive diagnosis came in the early 2000s at a national neurology center.

Nevertheless, the inability to plan daily activities around unpredictable pain took its toll. She particularly disliked being unable to plan outings, being seen as unreliable as a colleague, and even having to be looked after by her family during the incapacitation caused by the most severe episodes. “It robs you of the small freedoms we don't appreciate until they're gone,” she says. She remembers obtaining tickets for a major concert, only to have an attack inside a facility.


Headaches have been described across the ages. “The earliest description of headache comes by way of the ancient civilizations in antiquity,” write authors in a book on the topic. They linked the ailment to an malevolent entity who attacked his sufferers' heads.

Ancient healing texts propose bizarre remedies for what some observers would describe as a headache disorder. In the medieval times, migraine was identified as a distinct condition, with therapies ranging from bloodletting to other, more superstitious cures.

It was a European doctor who provided the initial detailed account of a cluster headache. In his writings, he speaks of a patient “suffering with a very severe headache happening and disappearing each day at fixed hours”.

The disorder were only officially recognised by global headache committees in the late 1980s. From the mid-20th century to the 1990s, they were believed to be caused by a issue with a major artery which supplies blood to the head. Leading experts in diagnosing the disorder explain this.

In 1998, scientists published the findings of a study for which they had induced cluster headaches in patients and observed the episodes in a brain scanner. The results, featured in a major journal, showed increased activity of the a brain region, which is responsible for human circadian rhythm, when patients were in discomfort, and a deactivation when they recovered.

In spite of such advances, identification remains delayed. Jamie Charteris's symptoms started in the 1980s and felt like “a modelling balloon being blown up behind my left eye”. Doctors thought he had sinus problems; he underwent four operations before eventually being diagnosed in recently, after a physician looked up his complaints.

Neurologists say delays in diagnosis and managing occur because patients are seldom seen during an episode. “You're tired and depressed, but not in severe pain,” one says. He works by eliminating other common head pain disorders, such as migraine, before diagnosing the disorder. A thorough patient history is crucial: on which side do symptoms occur? For how much time? What season? Are there precipitating factors, such as alcohol? Certain features such as tearing, sagging eyelids and nasal congestion help confirm cluster headaches. Once diagnosed, patients may be sent to specialist clinics. But a lot of first go to A&E or are given unsuitable treatments.

A charity trustee, in her late seventies, has experienced the condition for most of her adult life, although she has been free from an episode since 2016. When she was in her 20s, she had her teeth pulled because dentists misunderstood her pain. She believes the dental profession still need much more education. When a sufferer sought help from a charity, it was Chapman who responded. I remember calling a helpline during an bout in early 2021; a reassuring advisor talked me through oxygen therapy and drugs until the episode eased.

National guidance on management advise that sufferers are offered high-flow oxygen therapy and/or a specific drug administered by injection. No tablets or strong analgesics should be used. Prophylactic choices include a blood pressure medication, which apparently soothes the bouts of well-known people.

But consultant neurologists believe the guidance need updating to reflect a clearer clinical process and help general practitioners avoid misprescribing. For episodic patients, timing is critical: “The length of the bout dictates the approach.” Brief cycles with occasional episodes are handled with acute therapy alone. More prolonged or more severe periods require preventative medications such as certain drugs, sometimes combined with corticosteroids. Many patients also receive a greater occipital nerve block during a cycle – an injection into the side of the head where the pain is that reduces nerve signals.

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Dawn Murphy
Dawn Murphy

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